Anxiety and depression can be a real drain on life. Today I felt the overwhelming pressure of both of them. Sometimes you just need to cry.
So today as I’m sitting in our kitchen about to eat lunch with the hubby, I completely broke down. Loads of unstoppable tears. Nothing crazy bad happened, I didn’t get hurt, just a rush of emotion flowing over the top of me.
I had a feeling earlier in the day that it might happen. Usually when I am going to have an emotional breakdown I get very irritable a few hours leading up to said breakdown. This morning was no different. It started off good but as the morning went on I started getting irritated by everything. I have PTSD so I’m guessing that it flares up before my breakdowns.
After my breakdown I knew I had to relax myself and get straight because I had plans to go over to my parents and meet with the missionaries that are in town. So I made myself a HUGE cup of hot tea and sat in my reclining chair. I hopped on TikTok because even though it may be a stupid app to some it is a major release for someone like me. When time came closer that we needed to leave I got up, threw on my makeup, and let my hair down. Put on some cute clothes and fancy boots too!
Thankfully the rest of the day and night so far too have been going smoothly. When you’re about to have a breakdown or are currently in the middle of one, remember they don’t last forever. Just take it easy and focus on what you, your body, and your mind need at the moment. ❤️
~ Jessica
Collamati Homestead 